February

February and I have had a rough history. We've never really gotten along too well. I associate February with a monotonous landscape of grey clouds and grey sky. Weariness. Seasonal affective disorder. If winter were a watermelon, february would be the the rind. If winter were a bad week, February would be Wednesday... morning.

I am thankful that this year, February and I are actually getting along ok. All day today the sky has been blue. Right now, the sun is setting beautifully with colorful clouds and long shadows. I am thankful to be at home, even for just one afternoon, to enjoy my family. Valentines day was not "singles awareness day" it was "love day." I felt so loved. Somehow, in the process of celbrating birthdays lately, I have been on the receiving end! On Friday, my friend Brian made me Indian food for HIS birthday. Just now, my brother Johannes made me tea (we're celebrating his birthday today!). I am thankful for the relationships that continue to form in unexpected ways. Sometimes it's late at night in my dorm room, sometimes early in the morning in kerrytown. Sometimes it's out to dinner on mainstreet, sometimes it's casually studying at Pancheros. I am so grateful for the people in my life, quirky and wonderful, there to reveal so much of God's character to me just by being themselves.

Current struggle: Apathy
Current lesson: Wait upon the Lord. Be content with uncertainty